My Niece and Nephew

These are pictures of my family at Little Ricios 1st Birthday. Jr., or Little Ricio is my 1st nieces Maria's little boy. There is also pictures of my niece Lupita or LuLu., she turned 1 on the 26th of this month, her bday., party is this Saturday. LuLu, is my 1st nephew Jimmy's baby girl!! Yes, I am a Great Aunt!! There are also pictures of my Dad and some of our kids. My Dad is the heavy set one with the plate on his lap!! I am a lot like him..., love to eat, especially bbq!! His wife is to his left, she has been really ill. The other group picture is my brother Paul and his family. The one with LuLu being held, that is her daddy, my nephew and his wife and there cousin. I can't believe that LuLu, and Jr, are both a year old. Where does the time go??????? But, I have to say, they are both to damned cute!!!!!!!! Toddlers got to love them!!!

Before during and soon done.

Chase and I smashing the grapes. The before and after vines. All my men smashing together.
Tyler, standing in the middle taken his turn, to get some juice out of the grapes!!

Chases feet really getting into it. Smash smash smash. Tyler taking a little break.

Tyler he is to sexy, to smash., he is a little full of himself!!

Tyler adding the yeast to the wine.

These are the yeast tablets. We had to go to Delgado's (?) however you spell it winery to buy the yeast. We tasted it and it is really great, last years of course. This years will be done next Thanksgiving, same as this year. So, every year at Thanksgiving with our meal, we will be having our wine from the year before. I think it is a great tradition. The boys really enjoy it.

Crush Time

Here are some of the grapes we used this year to make our wine. Last years batch will be ready to drink right about now. We are going to be bottling last years as soon as we get some more caps for our wine bottles. I will be sharing more photos.

It was really a lot of fun, crushing, the grapes to make the wine, with the whole family.

9 names

1. Sandi Ferro

2.Sanizzle

3.pinkseal

4.Leeedgewater

5.Fersa

6. Blacklemondropmartini

7.arfrnpe

8. raymarie

9. bkackbitch

Hey that was pretty fun!! I like Blackbitch and pinkseal!! Cute and fun!! Thanks
Hugs, Sandi

Sent the Men Out

Yeah, being lazy. I sent Steve and Tyler out to get us a BBQ tri-tip sandwiches. Yummy!! I hope I can eat it and not feel sick. Went for my gallbladder scan. I want know anything for a few days!! I don't know!! I do know the Pain meds, make my mouth dry as hell!! WATER PLEASE!!

Yep, 41 just around the corner!! Send Money please!!! LOL!! Oh, gift cards welcome also!! I am telling you I can't believe, another year, has already came and gone. Can't wait until the rain comes!! I love the first rain, it smells so fresh, and gets all that yuk, out of the air. I am ready to decorate for the Holidays! I can't wait to have a fire in our fireplace! And to wear my cute winter hats, and sweaters!! Oh, C., I am still talking to Stevie about relocating. Hey, isn't Natalies husband, kinda on the inside, of whats what in Boise? Have him check out the jobs for me!! OH, sorry Natalie, he is your husband!! LOL!! If he hears of anything for Managment, (Operations and Production, of pretty much any type of mechanical machinary. C anc C machines. Reading blueprints, making the specs for them. He is a Man of all trades. He can start a project from the very beginning and finish it, totally by himself. Give him any project, He can figure it out!!
I know a lot of things are slow right now. But if you do hear anything please pass it on!! I would so love to live closer to all of you! Especally my Sis C,. But while she is at work, the rest of the gals can go out and play.!! LOL! I wish I could get him there, to see the beauty. Although, it is a little far for me, as far as going to the ocean. How far do you have to go, to get to the ocean??? We can't even sale our house right now, and even get what we owe on it. SO screwed up. I say walk away!! If things don't turn around especially in Calif., were out. Outta money, outta a house, just outta! Screw the stress! Not worth it! That is probablly why Steve and I keep getting this stupid medical issues!! Stress, over bills, can definately make you physically ill! What is your newspaper called? I will start checking it on line.

Well, I don't think I am gonna get to come visit this year. I am so sad, about it!!! Maybe some money, will mysteriously appear!! My little fairy, will bring it to me, in my sleep. It is time for a new tattoo!! Oh, Natalie, your in this time!!

Well, I guess I should quit, chatting and get back to doing nothing! OH, my food is here, time to gain a little more ass!! LOL!!

Good Day!

You know everyday we wake up is a good day!! We have got to make the best of what we got!! Everything has been so blah and up in the air, I have forgotten to be grateful for all the things I have. My family, my friends and all the beauty that surrounds me everyday!! I need to slow down and remember all the people who fight for our country, the police officers putting their lives on the line day to day, the firefighters saving our homes, and all the people working in the medical field, so we can stay.....,healthy. Well, I just feel grateful today, I should remember to thank God everyday, for all I have. To all my friends and family, I am very grateful to have you in my life. I love and respect you all. I am sorry if I don't tell you that enough!!

Been A While

Well, I thought I would stop by and say Hello!! I have been really running crazy lately. Steve finally passed his kidney stone. Poor guy, he was in so much pain. Thank God he didn't have to have surgery. I did go to the attorney and I didn't make enough money in the certain quarters to draw any disability. Oh well, we will be OK, we always are, it will just be tight for a while. While Steve was in Modesto at one of his Doctor appointments, I ended up going to their Urgent Care, because of extreme stomach pain. I had recently had a colonoscopy. They didn't find anything. Thank God. But the stomach pain persist. I went back to my GI, and he thinks I have IBS., and I am lactose intolerent. Damn never realized how many things have lactate in them!! So, for four weeks I have to be lactose free to see how my stomach feels and have a CT scan, to check my Gallbladder. Wow, what a ride August was!! Hoping for a calmer September!! At least, my Bday is coming, hoping Steve and I can afford to at least go out to dinner. It would be great to get away, but, I really doubt that's gonna happen.

This past weekend I went to my great nephew's bday party, it was nice. I will be sharing pictures soon!

I hope everyone is doing well. I am keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers. I will keep you posted on my stomach condition. Darcie and Kary I appreciate the thoughts and prayers...., right back at you!!!! And to all who read my blog!!

Oh yea, someone elses bday is this month....., Happy bday month Natalie!! Hopefully you read this or someone passes well wishes on to you!! And Corinna I miss the hell outta you sista. I really wish I could afford to come visit on my bday, all of us could celebrate together. Natalie and I could be the bday Queens!!!! LOL! Miss you all, WB ASAP!!

One day at a time!!

My poor husband has been hurting with kidney stones. He has been in some serious pain for two weeks tomorrow. He saw a Urologist today, and he may have to have surgery if the stones don't start passing. The poor guy can't get a break. He just want's the pain stopped. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers.

I have my appointment with a attorney tomorrow. My appt., is to find out if I can draw disability. I hope he has some good news for me. Steve and I could really use the money. We can't continue paying out all this money on my Bi-Polar medication. It breaks down to about $300 every month or so, depending on whether or not my Doctor has samples to give me. Hope there is some way of doing something.

A little up-date on my brother Paul. He actually stayed a few nights at home by himself. His wife and kids went camping and my brother didn't want to go. He didn't mind if they went. WHo knows maybe he wanted some alone time. Anyway, he did very well. His wife Tiffany, was only 10-15 minutes away, so she came during the day to check on him. They had left him some Tv dinners. Well, she went to check on him, and he didn't want the TV dinner, and he had made himself some eggs and hashbrowns. I was so happy!! He is still not walking, and he has chose not to continue physical therapy, because afterward he is so soar he feels like he has to start all over. It is his decision, so I support him no matter what. I have'nt seen him in about 3 weeks. But, for him to have shredded those potatoes by himself, that is great!!!!!!!!!! His hands and arms are working better for him. I plan on going out to see him this weekend. He still doesn't like talking on the phone because if you don't understand him, he gets really frustrated. When you see him in person, he can point or use his hands to help you understand. His wife, has actually went back to work part time. Pauls mother-in-law, lives with them she doesn't work, so she helps take care of Paul, and in return, she has a place to live. Her and Paul are really close so it works out really well. I will let you all know how well it is really going after I go out and visit him! Please always keep him in your prayers! The prayers have definately helped so far. Thanks!!

God Bless

Never Enough

Why is it no matter how much money you make it is never enough? It gets so exhausting, wondering how you're going to pay your bills, and buy school clothes. I know there is no way to change what is, but it just makes me nervous!! It would be so nice to just be able to go school shopping, or to the grocery store, and just get what you need, and not worry, how much is going into the cart, what should I put back? I don't want to buy shit I don't need, you know just the basics!!
I finally made a appointment with an attorney. I want to find out what and how the laws work as far as disability. I have been unable to work for many years. My friends know, I have suffered from depression, extreme anxiety, and Bi-Polar disorder. I have filed for disability years ago. I applied two times, they denied me both times. I never fought it. They told me I hadn't worked enough hours in that quarter, to draw any disability. Well, of coarse I hadn't. I would try to work, and was always unable to keep the position due to mood changes, and anxiety. I don't think I should be penalised because of my inability to work. I did work cleaning the offices, where my husband works for about a year. The only reason I was able to do that, is because Steve, and the boys went with me and helped me. There was no one there at the time but us. There was nothing or no one to make me nervous, but I didn't take any social security out of our checks, because we were only making about $4Io a month. I hope the attorney, has some news that will help. As I mentioned before, my medication is very expensive and it is causing us a hardship, as far as our bills. If I have to have them filled, the cost together is $304 a month. I called Steve's insurance company, they offer prescriptions by mail, so I signed up for that, I will get three months of med, for what I am paying for one month now. I am relieved, that will help some!!
I was told, that SS denies you, you may be able to draw on your husbands SS. I don't want to do that, but, at this point at least until we can get our heads above water it would be a blessing. I see the attorney on Monday. It doesn't cost me anything unless they win my case. The only thing I have to pay out of pocket, is for the copies of my medical records. WOW, there is allot of those. I hope all the headache is worth it and I get some good news!! I know there has to be allot of people getting disability, that really don't need it, or that are just getting it because they are faking some kind of back injury or what have you. I sort of feel like a looser going to do this, but we really need some help. I could have done it years ago, but I just kept putting it off, because of that reason. Why can't I just work like everyone else? If I have to get disability I am a waste to society, living off of other peoples money. I am still really having a hard time!! I am going to talk to this attorney, just to hear if I have any options, or if it is definitely a no. The SS office, had once told me, that I couldn't draw it because of Steve's income. For a family of four we were right at what we could have coming in, and I didn't qualify. Maybe that will be the case. But I have decided to find out if I have any options. If not, nothing lost. It is a free consultation. We will go on as normal. If there is something I can do, I really need to do it. It is so unfair to my sweet Husband, to struggle so much on his own to take care of us. It really hurts me, and makes me feel even worse. I am nervous to go talk to an attorney. It makes me very nervous. I am going to try to in list a friend, to go with me. I am hoping Melanie, can come along. Steve can't because of work. Well, I suppose I have vented enough, and shared my newest endeavor. I hope all goes well. Keep me in your prayers!

Thanks for reading!
Sandi

Saturday.

Not doing much today. I am kinda restless. Don't really want to take a nap, don't want to clean. It's to hot outside to do any rose gardening. I already had lunch. I guess I could read, but no. I hate when I get in this mood. I know what would help SHOPPING THERAPY!!! It's really unfortunate that I can't afford to shop for frivolous  things I don't need right now. Damn it!!!! Well I will get to shop sometime tomorrow. Tyler has senior pictures and we need to find him a nice jacket to wear. The jacket will be just for the yearbook photo. All the other photos, and poses he can wear whatever he wants. I think that is a little crappy, your paying for the photos, so to me they should also be able to wear what they want in the yearbook photo!! Rules are rules I suppose. Just, like everything else in the world, follow the rules, be good!! Blah, blah blah!! It gets so damn boring, doesn't it????? Time for girls night out!! Let our hair down, and just dance, and be wild!!! Sounds good, I don't know if my feet could keep up!!! My sister and I, have been taking line dancing classes. We hit and miss them depending on the heat. We take them at this cute ol country club, called Nashville West. It's really fun, and a great work out. We didn't make it last week, my sister had the flu. Hopefully, this week we'll make it. My sister is trying to talk me into going out with her tonight, I should. but, you know she's single, and it just a little uncomfortable dancing with some stranger when your married. My hubby is totally cool with it, I just wish I could get him to go with us!! Once he is out, he has a lot of fun, it's just getting him out there. I have to say, it's even hard getting me out there. I use to be the one, getting all the plans laid out for all us girls. I guess it's just my age or the fact it takes so long to get ready. I don't know, but today, is just a I don't wanna kinda day!! You have to realize though, with me, that means nothing!! My sister or Darla,  Kary or any other close friend could call and I might change my mind and say Hell Yes, Lets GO!! Hence,........my email address, Cantdecide67@hotmail.com. What ya'll doing out there, this wonderful Saturday afternoon????

Got any ideas? I think I pretty much covered what there is to do. If you got any ideas, bring them on!!

Till Then, ??????

Life Happens!

Isn't it strange how no matter what is going on around you,  good or bad, life continues to move on? It can move on with you or with out you, it has no preference! I have really been thinking about this a lot lately, do, to a lot of my friends, my brother, and others around me, really struggling, just to make it day to day. They are facing, things anywhere, from finding out whether their husband has breast, and skin cancer, to being able to verbally communicate, and walk once again!!! Some are still grieving the loss of loved ones, while others are celebrating the birth of new lives coming into the world!!  The thing that is so mind boggling for me is that it can all be happening at the same exact time. All of these things, on the same exact day, at the exact same time, to people all around the world. I know logically we all know this, but I think we forget those who really need an extra smile, a short phone call, (which I myself fall very short of.) A quick hug, or just letting them no we are there for them! It seems so many or going through so much. The times have gotten a lot tighter, things are more expensive, and a lot of people feel things won't get any better. Today, I have to say, God isn't suppose to give us more then we can handle. God must think we are a lot stronger, then we think we are. He really gives us the shadow of a doubt. So many bad things happen to good people. I always say there is a reason for everything that happens, but, sometimes it is really hard to believe that, especially when I spend the day with my brother. He has to struggle everyday just to do the simplest things. I am hurt, sad for him, and very angry!! I struggle with my own demands from day to day, I know we all do. Can it just stop, for a little while,..... a break from bad news, bad times, bad thoughts. Just stop and be silent, and be able to enjoy the beauty all around us, without any of the bad ruining the view??? I know from time to time, we all go through rough patches. If only, when those things happen, you get time off the clock, a time out to catch up, let your mind, compute what's going on! But, that isn't how life works!! No matter the situation, you have to make what you can of it, and move on, cause life happens, ready or not!!

JUST SAYING

HEY HEY HEY

WHAT IS HAPPENING OUT THERE IN THE BIG WIDE WORLD? I HAVE BEEN HOME A LOT LATELY, DO TO MY STOMACH. SOMETHING GOING ON, THEY SCHEDULED ME FOR A SCOPE, DOWN THE THROAT, AND A COLONOSCOPY. THEY ARE GONNA DO THEM AT THE SAME TIME. WELL U KNOW WHAT I MEAN, ONE RIGHT AFTER THE OTHER, WHILE I AM UNDER. THEY ARE GOING TO DO IT JUNE 5TH, AT MEMORIAL HOSPITAL. I WILL NOT BE ALL THE WAY UNDER, I AM NOT TO HAPPY ABOUT THAT!! WELL, WHAT YOU GONNA DO?

MY BRO., PAUL, HAS MADE A LOT OF PROGRESS. HIS TALKING AND WALKING ARE A LITTLE BETTER. BUT AS FAR AS MOVEMENT, HE CAN MOVE FORM CHAIR TO CHAIR, HE CAN STAND FOR SHORT PERIODS. HE SHOWERS HIMSELF AND FEEDS HIMSELF. SO, THINGS ARE A LITTLE BETTER FOR HIM!! THANK GOD!! HE HAS BEEN DOING HIS OWN THERAPY  AT HOME, THEY CAN'T AFFORD THE DRIVE TO AND FROM SONORA, DO TO GAS PRICES. SO HIS WIFE TIFFANY, IS LOOKING IN TO SOMEONE COMING TO THERE HOUSE A COUPLE OF DAYS A WEEK. MAYBE WORK COMP, WOULD HELP WITH THAT. THAT WOULD BE GREAT.

WELL, THE KIDS ARE GREAT AFTER THIS FRIDAY TYLER CAN OFFICIALLY SAY, HE IS A SENIOR. I CAN OFFICIALLY SAY, I AM OLD!!! STEVE HAS BEEN VERY BUSY AT WORK, BUT HE HAS BEEN TAKING IT LIKE A CHAMP! HE IS MY SWEETIE PIE. CHASE, HAS A INTERVIEW TOMORROW, TO BECOME ASSISTANT MANAGER. HE IS NERVOUS, BUT I REALLY THINK HE WILL GET IT. HIS INTERVIEW, IS WITH THE DISTRICT MANAGER, HER NAME IS JUDY, I HAVE MET HER ONCE. SHE SEEMED NICE. IF HE GETS IT, HE WILL MOVE TO A DIFFERENT STORE. WE HAVE 8 STARBUCKS NOW AND ANOTHER GOING IN. TYLER AND CHASE ARE GOING TO TAKE CLASSES TOGETHER THIS SUMMER AT MJC., TAKE THE SAME CLASS, AND THEY CAN SHARE ONE SET OF BOOKS, SAVES ME MONEY. AND FURTHERS THEIR EDUCATION. EVERYONE WINS!!

WELL, I GOTTA GO CHANGE MY LAUNDRY, STEVE'S WORK CLOTHES NEED TO BE DRIED, FOR THE MORNING. I WOULDA HAD IT DONE ALREADY, BUT, I WENT AND TREATED MY SELF TO A MANI AND A PEDI. I WISH YOU GHETTO GALS LIVED CLOSER, SO WE COULD GO TOGETHER!! ALL MY GHETTO PALS HERE ARE WORKING DURING THE DAY. SOMEONE NEEDS TO HIT THE LOTTO!! TIL NEXT TIME!!!!!!!!!!

OH YEA C,. I COULD REALLY USE A NEW BORDER TOO!! I LOVE YOU LOTS, BUNCHES, KISSY KISS,HUGGY WUGGY!! LOL!! BUT, I REALLY DO!! IF YOU EVER GET THE TIME, I KNOW YOU ARE CRAZY BUSY! WE'LL TALK SOON!!

HUGS TO ALL

People Wow!!

Well, It's been a while. I thought I would just check in, and say Hello. My Brother Paul, is doing a little better. He is not walking yet, he can a little with his walker. but not much. We just helped him move into a single story apt., he was in a two story, and the shower was upstairs, made it hard for his wife and mother in law, to get him upstairs to take a shower. The new apt., has two bathrooms both with full showers. It's much better, for him. It is bigger, and he can move about in his wheel chair much easier. He is still doing physical therapy. It is two days a week, so all the hope is in it just taking time for him to get the rest of his speech back, and be able to get rid of that wheel chair!! Keep him in your prayers!!

My cousin Mike, just had knee replacement surgery on the 10th. He is at home, making good progress, I called today, and he seemed like he was in allot of pain. He goes to the doctor tomorrow, so hopefully they give him something a little stronger for the pain. I guess there is some kind of machine he has to use on his knee and it makes it hurt. Hoping for a speed recovery for him also!! Keep him in your prayers too!!

One of my oldest and dearest friends Darla, is finally home, recovering from two surgeries herself!! She went into the hospital, with side pain, they found cyst on her right ovary they had to remove, and they removed her appendix, while they were in there. She had some complications, to make a long story short, she ended up with blood left in her abdominal area, and had to have another surgery to have it removed! She was in and out of the hospital 3 times before they finally got everything taken care of. What a ordeal!! She is finally recovering. Thank God!! Please keep her in your prayers as well!!

One more prayer request, another friend of mine mother is in the hospital with 3 brain tumors, that are not operable, and she is on the strongest of chemo., of course they want to put a time limit on her life, but, that is just unacceptable!! It is my friend Dawn's mom. She is a very close friend of Darla's so is Dawn's mom Ethel, that's is who I am speaking of. It has been very hard on Dawn and her whole family!!! Let's please pray for Ethel, that these brain tumors be healed, and for strength for Dawn, and her family and friends!! What a sad and emotional ride. Dawn herself just got through Hotchkens
LYmpoma Her mother and her are very strong. I pray they continue, especially Ethel, to fight the good fight, may God be with them and keep them!! Amen!

Well, now to little ld Well, I am as good as can be expected!! Actually better, due to all that has gone on in my life the past few months. I have no complaints, with where I am and how I am doing!! My kids and husband are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and food to eat and allot of love!!!!!!!!! SO, I am doing GREAT! So many people going through so much, it just make me realize how important life is. We need to keep in touch with all our friends and family, let them know how much we love them, and really have compassion for others. You just never know what they might be going through!!

I started writing this originally to vent about my father, but after everything that's been said here, I well save that for tomorrow!!

Corinna, I love and miss you, let's set up a time to get on the phone, I will call you. When do you have some serious down time, I need to taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalk!!

Thanks to all who read and pray along with me for all!! I hope to talk to you all soon!!

Love to all, Sandi

Little Bro Is Gettting Better!!

Hello All,

It has been a long couple of months!! My brother is at home, and now he has to do out patient therapy. He is talking a little and he is eating pureed food. They left the tube in his tummy for now, just until he is eating better, due to the swallowing, he still has trouble taking his meds, and swallowing some foods, even though they are pureed. He is walking a little. They will be working with him on the walking, and all the rest of the things that are already progressing. He came over on Easter, he ate everything I Pureed for him. Ham, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes and stuffing. Then I pureed two pieces of cherry pie and cool whip, he ate all of eat. Someone still has to feed him, but Thank God, he is eating, talking walking and walking a little!!!!
I am so happy, there are no words to describe, how proud I am of him, he is really pushing himself to be the best he can be!! He actually called me himself last night, he remembered my number, and he talked to me. Some things are still hard to make out, but for the most part, if you really listen, you can understand!! I am just thrilled!!! We had a really nice Easter, we went outside, and Steve andTyler were playing catch with Paul's boys, Paul came outside and enjoyed the sun!! I am so glad he is out and about!!!

As for me and my immediate family, we are doing great!! Just chilling and enjoying spring break!!
I hope all of you are doing great!! Miss talking to all of you!! Thank You for all your thoughts and prayers, they have been answered!! He has a long way to go, but he is sooooooooo on his way!!

Thanks!!!!!
Love to all, miss all you Idaho Gals!!!!

Little Bro Update!!

Hello All,
It has been a very long month and a half!! My little brother, has been moved to a Rehabilitation Center in Santa Clara. He is moving his arms and hands a little better, but he has a long long way to go!! He still isn't speaking. He can now say a few words, which before he couldn't say anything. He still cannot walk yet. They are working on him getting his balance back first, then they will start letting him practice on the parallel bars, and then hopefully a walker. He is having to be fed through a feeding tube, that they placed directly into his stomach, his swallowing, has been effected. Since he is unable to eat regular food, he has lost over 50 pounds. He is so frustrated and scared, discouraged!! I am so sad for him. I absolutely can't stand seeing him this way!!

The Rehabilitation center he is at now, he has his own physical therapist, a vacation therapist, speech therapist, and a psychologist, and nurse. He has to do physical therapy everyday, Monday through Saturday. Sunday is a rest day.

My sister and I, went to see him last Sunday, he just seems so sad. I got him to smile and laugh a few times, all he has right now, is just to be inside himself, he has an alphabet paper, so he can write things for us, but he still has trouble using his hands , so it's very frustrating for him, when we don't understand, what he is trying to tell us! He is doing allot better, though. He can drink on his own, he is getting stronger everyday!! Just hoping and praying, he can come back, 100%. It is just awful to see my little brother this way!

Please God, give Paul the strength to carry on, let your will be done in his life and not his own! Help him to hang in there and know, that there is a reason for this awful tragedy, although, we don't know what that is right now. Please give him patience, to continue his physical therapy, and not feel so frustrated!! Feel him with the Holy Spirit, and help him to have Faith, that all will be okay!! In Jesus name I pray!!

My Little Bro!!

I haven't been onmy blog in days. My little brother Paul, ODd on Meth and xanax. He was on a vent machine, that was breathing f0r him for over a week. His kidneys have shut down. He is unable to talk, walk or use his arms. His kidneys, may come back depending on how much damage has been done to them, due to the drugs. They think his voice will come back, it is extremely raw, swallon and irritated from intabated. They have a tube feeding him directly to his stomach, they didn't want to go through the nose, due to the throat already being so irritated. So, they put a feeding to directly into his tummy, to get some nutrition, into his system. He was eating on his own and drinking, but when the did the swallowing test, he was not swallowing all the way, and some of the fluids, and food, were going into his lungs, which is very dangerous, for him, he could choke or asperate. So, they want the feeding tube, directly into his tummy, to let his throat heal. Then, if his speech is still bad, they will know it is neourolgical. His hands, arms, legs and feet, have been effective. There is no sign of brain damage. They, think it will all come back with, speech, occupational. and pyscical therapy. He is really a strong man!! He is hanging in there, it has been awful for him. He can't talk, to tell us how he is feeling, if he is pain ect., he can't get up to use the bathroom, he can't drink or eat on his own, so the feeding tube, atleast, we know he is getting the nutrition he needs. And the IV fluids for dehydration. It is so sad to see him that way. I know he has suffered, from depression, I just didn't know how bad it was. I wish I would have known, I talked to him the day all this happened. He was angry, at his wife, he didn't sound anything but angry!! That next morning I get a phone call, that he is in a drug induced coma!! I hope and pray, that he makes a full recovery and I have my baby brother back!! For his sake, and his childrens sake. I pray, with all my heart, that he makes it through all this, and will use this experience to help other people who suffer from depression, and drug abuse!! It will be 3 weeks tomorrow, that he has been suffering through this. Please, your thoughts and prayers, would and will be greatly appreciated!!!!!! I will let you know how things develope!! It is so hard to see my baby brother, going through all this, I wish I could take his place!! I would if I could! I love him very much, I want the very best for him!! Please keep all of us close at heart! On a little happier note, I wish ever yone a Happy Valentines Day!! Tell those you love, how you feel, cause you never know, what tomorrow holds!!
Love, Sandi

Babies

These two pictures are of Jimmy
my nephew) and Maggie's

baby, Lupe Marie De La Hoya! She is 2 months! She is the calmest baby ever!! I have to say she looks just like her daddy! She eats and sleeps!

Oh, yea and poops. She is a really easy baby.

The rest of the pictures are of JR, (my niece), Maria's baby. He is just a cutie pie!~ He loves his Auntie Sandi!!! He has spent the night with me, a few times. He loves to take a bath, laughs and kicks, the whole time. He will be 5 months on the 28th! He has two teeth on tbe bottom, and is getting his top ones, the poor guy has been in pain. I watch him three nights aweek, so Maria can go to the gym.

I don't have many pictrures of Lupe, I don't see her as much. I love spending time with them. They are so sweet and innocent. It is a lot more work then I remember!! I guess when you are use to sleeping all night, those few hours, really take a lot out of you.

As for me, I am hanging in!! It has been raining here a lot. Dark and cloudy and cold. Today is mine and Steve's 21st wedding anniversary, and he is in Portland, on a job! Sad!! Oh, well we can make up for it when he gets home!! I still haven't went to get a new cell phone, I will soon! Hope everyone is well!! I hope you enjoy the pictures!!!!

Love Auntie Sandi

Gotta Charge It!

Hello, Just little ol me. I am in a better mood. Thank God!! It is actually been nice having Steve help me with the bills. Share more of that thought on a week day!! LOL!!

I babysat little Jr., over night last night. He is so damned cute!! I just love him to pieces!! I don't know how I did it with two, so close together! I am very tired. He woke up twice last night, and then early this morning. I have pictures to share, but, I gotta let my battery on my camera charge. I gotta charge it!!!! Then I will post some pics., of Jr., Maria's baby and Lupe, Jimmy's baby!! I am surrounded by babies, I really enjoy it!! I am gonna take a nap now, charge my camera and share more later!!

No No No!!

Nope, I can't do it anymore!! The arguing about money, and the bills!! Yesterday at my appointment with my shrink, I just let it out!! Tired of everything!! Steve was in my session with me. I told my Dr., that I didn't even want to go over the bills with him, because it always ends up in a fight!! I even told the Dr., that I didn't even want to talk to him, I was so pissed, I even told her I didn't even want to be in the same room as he was. Not even on that same couch! I am tired of figuring it all out!! The money, the groceries, whats for dinner, the house work, I am just done, burnt out, angry, frustrated, and just want it all to go away!!! Just want to disappear!!
Go away, somewhere where I don't have to deal with all the bullshit!! Even if only for a short while!! Sorry I haven't called you C' I lost my cell phone, somewhere in my bedroom. We have turned it upside down, and I swore it is not there!! I can't afford to get a new one. Chase had insurance on his, so I am gonna try to have it replaced that way. I just haven't wanted to go out of the house to deal with it. Oh yea and my car is not running, the alternator, went out!! Steve has been to busy to fix it. He has to go to Southern California on Sunday, so it probably wont be fixed until after that. He can do it himself, thank God, at least that will save some money!! Does it ever end???? We need a girls vacation, Me. you, Kary, Na, Kori, Darcie, my sister, and maybe my Niece Maria!! Wouldn't that be a hoot!! We would have a blast!! We could all meet somewhere, in the middle. And just let it go!! Bitch, drink, dance, eat, hang out!! Gee, Now that Steve, has the check book , I guess I will be on a allowance. Shit I don't know, we haven't talked about that. I have a huge ass headache!!!!!!!!!! I need a job, for my own spending money! I am suppose to be going to La's Vegas in March for Maria's 21st birthday. I wander, how that's gonna work?!??!!?!? Sorry to be bitching, but I really need to let it out!! My kids, don't need to hear my problems! I just don't want the stress of the bills anymore!! So Steve, tells Tyler earlier, cause he wants to pay everything up to date this month, and Tyler's Birthday is the 19th of this month, that he will have to wait and have his party an February!! I am sooooooooooooooo irritated!! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU DO????? I have been in the house since Christmas, besides taking Ty., to or from school, depending on if there is a car here at the time, (one that is running). Oh yea, and to my Dr., apt. I am trying to stay calm, I just don't feel like going out or talking to anyone. I know this will pass, but, it's gonna be a nightmare, while it's going on!! Sorry to those that read, I used my blog today to vent!! Is it time for bed yet, I just want to climb back under the covers!! I mean, am I suppose to ask for money, for my hair apt., next week???? How is it gonna work, gee, just can't wait to find out!! I am sure, you will be hearing more about this!! Thanks for reading, thanks to those who love me, no matter, how screwed up I am!!!!! I know Steve loves me, men, just don't get it. The way they talk their demeanor, sometimes, they have a way, of making you feel like shit!!

My love to my friends,near and far for reading!! Any ideas please, I would welcome ANY!!
Hugs!!

Cousin Mike, his son Dave and Dave's wife Monique, Kickin it on New Years Eve. Happy Birthday to one of my best friends Kary!! New Years Eve is also her Birthday!! She celebrated in Style, doesn't she look so cute!!

Happy Birthday Kary I love you!! Those screw drivers were pretty damned good if I do say so myself!! And I do!! LOL!!

This is Kary and Baby Rickio or RJ., or JR., My great nephew, he is such a sweetie, although on this night he was a little cranky. He just turned 4 months on the 28th!! Then of coarse there is my beautiful self, and my alos beautiful friend Kary, giving you a Happy Birthday,- New Year Pose!! LOL!!

This is my sister Laura, talking on her phone, on New Years. She was babysitting JR., so no Holiday spirits for her!! We had a good time. Steve and I actually made it to midnight!! Wow, we were surprised!! Kary and the gang had to move on to their Next destination, Kary was on a mission. It was nice, to spend time with everyone!! Nice way to ring in the new year!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARY!! Thanks for always being there for me. I only hope I have been as good a friend to you as you have been to me!!

Hugs!!

New Adventure

Happy New Year!! Time for a fresh start! Mine started on New Years Eve Day, I had to go to Urgent Care and have an In-grown toenail removed!! Yea, not so fun, it was very painful!! Feels much better now, except, where they put the shots, in my toe!! (Crying)! Tyler, was the big man, and came with me and held my hand!! He has had to have it done before, so he new what I was in for!! It is feeling much better now, but I can't wear a shoe yet, and it is to cold to where flip-flops out in the cold. So I am here hanging out with my hommies. Tyler doesn't go back to school until the 7th. Tyler and I have been sleeping in............, til, like 12;00pm. We are not gonna wanna go back to the school schedule!!

I am going to start a baby album, for Maggie and Jimmy's baby girl Lupe Marie. I just want to get my Christmas decorations put away first. I wanna clean up one mess, before I make another one!! I have a few pictures to share of Kary and I, on New years eve, that's Kary's birthday also. Kary and Mike came by with Dave, Mikes son and his wife Monique. We had a few drinks, toasted to Kary's birthday, then, they were off to their next destination. I made it to midnight, I was surprised. I was sleepy, and that is totally past my bed time. My sister came by with my Nephew Daniel and my great Nephew RJ. or JR., so I got to play with the baby for a bit. I tried to get some good pictures, but he is cutting teeth, and he wasn't very happy. Maybe next time.

During my photo shoot of my animals, I some how left out poor little Bia, our miniature cha wa wa, (?)!! Next time. I took the picture, I just somehow didn't get it on to my page. I hope all is going well for all!! Until next time. Hugs!!