Little Bro Is Gettting Better!!

Hello All,

It has been a long couple of months!! My brother is at home, and now he has to do out patient therapy. He is talking a little and he is eating pureed food. They left the tube in his tummy for now, just until he is eating better, due to the swallowing, he still has trouble taking his meds, and swallowing some foods, even though they are pureed. He is walking a little. They will be working with him on the walking, and all the rest of the things that are already progressing. He came over on Easter, he ate everything I Pureed for him. Ham, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes and stuffing. Then I pureed two pieces of cherry pie and cool whip, he ate all of eat. Someone still has to feed him, but Thank God, he is eating, talking walking and walking a little!!!!
I am so happy, there are no words to describe, how proud I am of him, he is really pushing himself to be the best he can be!! He actually called me himself last night, he remembered my number, and he talked to me. Some things are still hard to make out, but for the most part, if you really listen, you can understand!! I am just thrilled!!! We had a really nice Easter, we went outside, and Steve andTyler were playing catch with Paul's boys, Paul came outside and enjoyed the sun!! I am so glad he is out and about!!!

As for me and my immediate family, we are doing great!! Just chilling and enjoying spring break!!
I hope all of you are doing great!! Miss talking to all of you!! Thank You for all your thoughts and prayers, they have been answered!! He has a long way to go, but he is sooooooooo on his way!!

Thanks!!!!!
Love to all, miss all you Idaho Gals!!!!

Little Bro Update!!

Hello All,
It has been a very long month and a half!! My little brother, has been moved to a Rehabilitation Center in Santa Clara. He is moving his arms and hands a little better, but he has a long long way to go!! He still isn't speaking. He can now say a few words, which before he couldn't say anything. He still cannot walk yet. They are working on him getting his balance back first, then they will start letting him practice on the parallel bars, and then hopefully a walker. He is having to be fed through a feeding tube, that they placed directly into his stomach, his swallowing, has been effected. Since he is unable to eat regular food, he has lost over 50 pounds. He is so frustrated and scared, discouraged!! I am so sad for him. I absolutely can't stand seeing him this way!!

The Rehabilitation center he is at now, he has his own physical therapist, a vacation therapist, speech therapist, and a psychologist, and nurse. He has to do physical therapy everyday, Monday through Saturday. Sunday is a rest day.

My sister and I, went to see him last Sunday, he just seems so sad. I got him to smile and laugh a few times, all he has right now, is just to be inside himself, he has an alphabet paper, so he can write things for us, but he still has trouble using his hands , so it's very frustrating for him, when we don't understand, what he is trying to tell us! He is doing allot better, though. He can drink on his own, he is getting stronger everyday!! Just hoping and praying, he can come back, 100%. It is just awful to see my little brother this way!

Please God, give Paul the strength to carry on, let your will be done in his life and not his own! Help him to hang in there and know, that there is a reason for this awful tragedy, although, we don't know what that is right now. Please give him patience, to continue his physical therapy, and not feel so frustrated!! Feel him with the Holy Spirit, and help him to have Faith, that all will be okay!! In Jesus name I pray!!

My Little Bro!!

I haven't been onmy blog in days. My little brother Paul, ODd on Meth and xanax. He was on a vent machine, that was breathing f0r him for over a week. His kidneys have shut down. He is unable to talk, walk or use his arms. His kidneys, may come back depending on how much damage has been done to them, due to the drugs. They think his voice will come back, it is extremely raw, swallon and irritated from intabated. They have a tube feeding him directly to his stomach, they didn't want to go through the nose, due to the throat already being so irritated. So, they put a feeding to directly into his tummy, to get some nutrition, into his system. He was eating on his own and drinking, but when the did the swallowing test, he was not swallowing all the way, and some of the fluids, and food, were going into his lungs, which is very dangerous, for him, he could choke or asperate. So, they want the feeding tube, directly into his tummy, to let his throat heal. Then, if his speech is still bad, they will know it is neourolgical. His hands, arms, legs and feet, have been effective. There is no sign of brain damage. They, think it will all come back with, speech, occupational. and pyscical therapy. He is really a strong man!! He is hanging in there, it has been awful for him. He can't talk, to tell us how he is feeling, if he is pain ect., he can't get up to use the bathroom, he can't drink or eat on his own, so the feeding tube, atleast, we know he is getting the nutrition he needs. And the IV fluids for dehydration. It is so sad to see him that way. I know he has suffered, from depression, I just didn't know how bad it was. I wish I would have known, I talked to him the day all this happened. He was angry, at his wife, he didn't sound anything but angry!! That next morning I get a phone call, that he is in a drug induced coma!! I hope and pray, that he makes a full recovery and I have my baby brother back!! For his sake, and his childrens sake. I pray, with all my heart, that he makes it through all this, and will use this experience to help other people who suffer from depression, and drug abuse!! It will be 3 weeks tomorrow, that he has been suffering through this. Please, your thoughts and prayers, would and will be greatly appreciated!!!!!! I will let you know how things develope!! It is so hard to see my baby brother, going through all this, I wish I could take his place!! I would if I could! I love him very much, I want the very best for him!! Please keep all of us close at heart! On a little happier note, I wish ever yone a Happy Valentines Day!! Tell those you love, how you feel, cause you never know, what tomorrow holds!!
Love, Sandi

Babies

These two pictures are of Jimmy
my nephew) and Maggie's

baby, Lupe Marie De La Hoya! She is 2 months! She is the calmest baby ever!! I have to say she looks just like her daddy! She eats and sleeps!

Oh, yea and poops. She is a really easy baby.

The rest of the pictures are of JR, (my niece), Maria's baby. He is just a cutie pie!~ He loves his Auntie Sandi!!! He has spent the night with me, a few times. He loves to take a bath, laughs and kicks, the whole time. He will be 5 months on the 28th! He has two teeth on tbe bottom, and is getting his top ones, the poor guy has been in pain. I watch him three nights aweek, so Maria can go to the gym.

I don't have many pictrures of Lupe, I don't see her as much. I love spending time with them. They are so sweet and innocent. It is a lot more work then I remember!! I guess when you are use to sleeping all night, those few hours, really take a lot out of you.

As for me, I am hanging in!! It has been raining here a lot. Dark and cloudy and cold. Today is mine and Steve's 21st wedding anniversary, and he is in Portland, on a job! Sad!! Oh, well we can make up for it when he gets home!! I still haven't went to get a new cell phone, I will soon! Hope everyone is well!! I hope you enjoy the pictures!!!!

Love Auntie Sandi

Gotta Charge It!

Hello, Just little ol me. I am in a better mood. Thank God!! It is actually been nice having Steve help me with the bills. Share more of that thought on a week day!! LOL!!

I babysat little Jr., over night last night. He is so damned cute!! I just love him to pieces!! I don't know how I did it with two, so close together! I am very tired. He woke up twice last night, and then early this morning. I have pictures to share, but, I gotta let my battery on my camera charge. I gotta charge it!!!! Then I will post some pics., of Jr., Maria's baby and Lupe, Jimmy's baby!! I am surrounded by babies, I really enjoy it!! I am gonna take a nap now, charge my camera and share more later!!

No No No!!

Nope, I can't do it anymore!! The arguing about money, and the bills!! Yesterday at my appointment with my shrink, I just let it out!! Tired of everything!! Steve was in my session with me. I told my Dr., that I didn't even want to go over the bills with him, because it always ends up in a fight!! I even told the Dr., that I didn't even want to talk to him, I was so pissed, I even told her I didn't even want to be in the same room as he was. Not even on that same couch! I am tired of figuring it all out!! The money, the groceries, whats for dinner, the house work, I am just done, burnt out, angry, frustrated, and just want it all to go away!!! Just want to disappear!!
Go away, somewhere where I don't have to deal with all the bullshit!! Even if only for a short while!! Sorry I haven't called you C' I lost my cell phone, somewhere in my bedroom. We have turned it upside down, and I swore it is not there!! I can't afford to get a new one. Chase had insurance on his, so I am gonna try to have it replaced that way. I just haven't wanted to go out of the house to deal with it. Oh yea and my car is not running, the alternator, went out!! Steve has been to busy to fix it. He has to go to Southern California on Sunday, so it probably wont be fixed until after that. He can do it himself, thank God, at least that will save some money!! Does it ever end???? We need a girls vacation, Me. you, Kary, Na, Kori, Darcie, my sister, and maybe my Niece Maria!! Wouldn't that be a hoot!! We would have a blast!! We could all meet somewhere, in the middle. And just let it go!! Bitch, drink, dance, eat, hang out!! Gee, Now that Steve, has the check book , I guess I will be on a allowance. Shit I don't know, we haven't talked about that. I have a huge ass headache!!!!!!!!!! I need a job, for my own spending money! I am suppose to be going to La's Vegas in March for Maria's 21st birthday. I wander, how that's gonna work?!??!!?!? Sorry to be bitching, but I really need to let it out!! My kids, don't need to hear my problems! I just don't want the stress of the bills anymore!! So Steve, tells Tyler earlier, cause he wants to pay everything up to date this month, and Tyler's Birthday is the 19th of this month, that he will have to wait and have his party an February!! I am sooooooooooooooo irritated!! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU DO????? I have been in the house since Christmas, besides taking Ty., to or from school, depending on if there is a car here at the time, (one that is running). Oh yea, and to my Dr., apt. I am trying to stay calm, I just don't feel like going out or talking to anyone. I know this will pass, but, it's gonna be a nightmare, while it's going on!! Sorry to those that read, I used my blog today to vent!! Is it time for bed yet, I just want to climb back under the covers!! I mean, am I suppose to ask for money, for my hair apt., next week???? How is it gonna work, gee, just can't wait to find out!! I am sure, you will be hearing more about this!! Thanks for reading, thanks to those who love me, no matter, how screwed up I am!!!!! I know Steve loves me, men, just don't get it. The way they talk their demeanor, sometimes, they have a way, of making you feel like shit!!

My love to my friends,near and far for reading!! Any ideas please, I would welcome ANY!!
Hugs!!

Cousin Mike, his son Dave and Dave's wife Monique, Kickin it on New Years Eve. Happy Birthday to one of my best friends Kary!! New Years Eve is also her Birthday!! She celebrated in Style, doesn't she look so cute!!

Happy Birthday Kary I love you!! Those screw drivers were pretty damned good if I do say so myself!! And I do!! LOL!!

This is Kary and Baby Rickio or RJ., or JR., My great nephew, he is such a sweetie, although on this night he was a little cranky. He just turned 4 months on the 28th!! Then of coarse there is my beautiful self, and my alos beautiful friend Kary, giving you a Happy Birthday,- New Year Pose!! LOL!!

This is my sister Laura, talking on her phone, on New Years. She was babysitting JR., so no Holiday spirits for her!! We had a good time. Steve and I actually made it to midnight!! Wow, we were surprised!! Kary and the gang had to move on to their Next destination, Kary was on a mission. It was nice, to spend time with everyone!! Nice way to ring in the new year!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARY!! Thanks for always being there for me. I only hope I have been as good a friend to you as you have been to me!!

Hugs!!